I have some ideas of what my limits are but I change those all the time. I adhere like a nice sticky patch of superglue to other peoples' limiting more than to my own. Wishywashy Ltd. Someone gave me a long, very long, list of limits checked with little marks in the boxes...I will do this I won't do that...I tried to take that test but so many I didn't know..if I would..if I wouldn't. Am I limitless then? Am I allowed to stand on the outer limits and feel inside that I'm free to do whatever the hell I want with my life or is that off limits? I fantasize about limitless. I adjust accordingly...tell me what you want..really want and I'll see if I can do that. It might be an unmarked box as of yet. Then again if it feels like that little scary animal I might just back off with a "maybe." Is that my limit then? Should I mark the box no? Bend me.

The reason I wonder..is because lately so often I want more than my own limits, whatever they may be defined as, allow. Amazingly enough I ask for these things..I even beg for them. I go way off the checkboard of life and then it hits me like a hammer and I feel like crap. Or I feel terrific. To do things beyond my limits within my limits is really what I want. Is that too much to ask or should I limit it to a specific area? Then again arises the wishywashy of me and I grow to enjoy things I felt must certainly be off limits to normal human beings. Who limited my vision on THAT in the first place?